Wednesday, July 18, 2007 ; 5:31 PM
主啊，保守我的心
胜过保守我的一切
因为一生的果效是从内心发出。
恳求主洁净我心
为我造一颗洁净的心
恳求圣灵住在我里面
使我从新有正直的灵。
Lord, above all, guard my heart for it is the wellspring of life.
yes, it isn't good to hate. but a nicer way of putting it would be that i seriously dislike him. for what he said to me almost a year ago that left me very demoralised and hence causing mutual dislike. now the class knows that i'm afraid of him and he knows it too. but such negative feelings stemmed from his sarcasm, his insensitive way of speaking and his unconventional way of 'motivation' as a teacher. if he drove her away and wants to see me alone for consultation, i'm very afraid that it'll turn out to be a confrontation instead. and i'd hate for that to happened because i still have the rest of the year which i want to live in peace and invisibility. i have a week to neutralise and dispel those negativities that have accummulated over these period of time before the showdown which i'm dreading. Oh God, heeelllppp...
